SOOOOO I'm thinking about making a new xanga? You see, random people looking at my xanga over and over again when I don't talk to them kind of scares me just a tad bit. Oh yeah, it pisses me off too. Plus, all these bitter entries... aren't that great to look back on LOL. Take this as a heads up. You know, find something better to do okay? Okay.

Uhm.... I still haven't finished Christmas shopping... how fucking ...GR lol. I should be working on homework but I'm not. LALALALALALA. Yay for hot cocoa<3333 gagagagaga.

Winterbreak almost here. YAY. then new year new start new resolutions that I'll forget bout and end up not keeping :D I love this time of year.

I get so sick of things easily I noticed, especially people.  I have to want to put up with them to actually... not get tired of them? Like theres this one girl I've known since sixth grade and she CAN BE a cool friend and all you know but like fuck sometimes I just wanna smack her. -_____- She's so ... oblivious to the people around her and the conflicts around her that shes just UGHHHHH. It's just like uhm .. hello, yeah who are you again? roar. She needs a big reality SLAP.

Whatever .

UHHHH Yeah, stop reading my xanga. I'm probably gonna change it anyway. BYE

ROARRRRR.

I do not  need this bullshit. I give up. Happy?

Dear Santa

Sephora $13. in Devotion, Liberty, Sunshine, and Queen Tiffany :)

MAC $16

MAC $13.50 in Flashtrack

Demo $34.99

Yes, I have problems. I'm sorry 

LALALALALALALA :) Today was really really really cold.  Not that all the days before weren't, but today seemed EXTRA cold. Maybe it was just me . SHRUGS. soooo After school I came home for a bit and headed to the mall with Richard and Juhee :D Richard drove, can you even imagine that? He's a bad driver ... RUDE TOO so stay off the road when hes driving you guys. just kidding richard Don't cry your puny eyes out KAKA. So anyway, when we were eating, guess who came! Henry Lamchop, but he was waiting for his ... soon to be gf? shrugs But yeahh so he left us then we saw Sanford getting ready Where the crepes at? HAHA Thennnn we watched Just Friends.  It was pretty good, funny :) Richard thinks that'll be us in ten years, he wishes. AFTERWARDS we just walked around and I did some shopping. I spend so much money without realizing it. I'm gonna go so broke :T THENN ngai gah sok KELVIN came to pick me upp and now I'm HERE. Well, Christmas is almost here YAY :D but winter break means more piano practicing, no excuses ireneluy!

Tomorrow I think I'm going back to the mall? I dernoe. I NEED to finish Christmas shopping! I don't wanna do any last minute crapppp.

OKAY. BYE.

If you're gonna pretend I don't even exist when your new buddies are with you, don't fucking act like you give a shit bout me. You're wasting my damn time. I thought you were better than that, guess I thought wrong. You said you would always be there for me you know, and you really seemed to genuinely care.  Apparently you're just another superficial bitch hm?

I'm having one of those moments where I'm like I hate you and you and you and you're just a fucking asshole.

I'm sick of hanging around.

Don't leave me hanging, remember that?  Guess not.

This is the story of them against us. Win or lose.  Force your feet into someone else's shoes. Everybody's got somethin` to say: that we oughta live their way, what we're doin' is not okay.  In this world, everybody's got a chip on both sides of their neck. Got no respect, wait up a sec.  You ever feel like the pressure's too much to take, too much weight? Ladies and gentlemen, if anybody can hear me right now, please shout back.  We're not the only ones feelin` so trapped in a dream of somebody else.  In fact, they got their heads full of some overblown scheme.  Opportunity they missed back when they were sixteen and all they want to do is push you to be that and all you wanna do is scream back.  They said the odds of makin` it were slim to none ladies and fuck it I'm tired of them sayin` the dream you have doesn't exist.  Tellin` you you're worthless, sayin` you should quit.  Basically tellin` you that you'll never be shit.
Be Somebody - Fort Minor

third edit today _____________ I absolutely hate how people assume. I mean come'on at least TRY to get some facts before going around thinking what's nothing but a big fat lie. It's not that hard; all you have to do is go up to the person and ask them about it.  If they don't wanna tell you then drop the damn thing, Don't fucking assume okay? It's one of the worst things you can do. So to all you motherfuckers out there that think me and danny are more than friends, we're not .. GOT IT? He's like a brother to me and just `cause you see us walking together almost all the time and talk a lot doesn't mean we're seeing each other fucking dumbasses. It's called being friends! Just `cause he's a guy and I'm a girl doesn't change anything. Get your fucking shit straight >:O   1) Was 2005 a good year for you? better than `04 2) What was your favorite moment of the year? summer : summerschool&LONDON BABY :D hahah 3) What was your least favorite moment of the year? HMM i don't know. kind of a lot? 4) Where were you when 2005 began? probably home -_____- 5) Who were you with? family 6) Where will you be when 2005 ends? GEE. i don't know 7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends? hopefully friends 8) Did you keep your New Year's resolution of 2005? don't even remember it lol 9) Do you have a New Year's resolution for 2006? uhhh ionnosss 10) Did you fall in love in 2005? nope 11) If yes, with who? --- 12) If yes, do they know? --- 13) If yes, are you still in love with them? --- 14) Do you regret it? --- 17) Who are your favorite new people in your life? uh new people? none. lol wow. isn't that crazy? i'm still kickin' it with the same people as one/two year(s) ago. and no new FRIENDs 18) What was your favorite month of 2005? HMMM. this month december :) 19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005? yeah LONDON :] 20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005? uh one? nevada las vegas -______- 21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005? uhm no? 22) Did you miss anybody in the past year? of coursee 23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005? the wedding date :) 24) What was your favorite song from 2005? TOO MANY 25) What was your favorite CD from 2005? i don't buy CD's anymore. 26) How many concerts did you see in 2005? 0 27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005? --- 28) Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2005? not a lot 29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005? nope 30) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year? yeah probably 31) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005? lololol lets not remember it okay? 32) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005? yeah :T dui mm jeee 33) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005? chyeahh 36) How much money did you spend in 2005? A LOT 37) What was your proudest moment of 2005? proud? uhh... everytime i clean my room and it looks brand new lmao :D 38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005? LOL 39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be? UHHH. may-july 40) What are your plans for 2006? do goooooood in school but not so hard it'll drive me crazy   YAY . for christmas in a week and half?